I came to MSH in 2012 at a Back to School Resource Fair. I don’t think I even knew what I was looking for. Life at home was just chaos. I work far from home and every day was just long with no relief. I was overwhelmed from the never-ending pressure. I was either being a martyr or mad at everyone. I’d go along for a while and finally just flip out and lose it. Then I’d feel so guilty and my kids would just freeze. They said I looked possessed and turned into “The Hulk.” I had to do something.
I’d come to the weekly Mother’s Club and just cry every time. Gradually, I started making friends, getting some practical tools to take home and I began to feel like maybe I wasn’t a totally bad mother. I started focusing on me and how valuable I am. I realized that I needed to take responsibility for myself and start making some changes.
It took a long time for me to finally try SFI. I knew it would be good for me, but I had no idea how good! I actually started to make a plan and work a plan. What a difference. Things got quieter at home; we actually listened to each other. We put together a workable routine and because everyone knew what they were supposed to do, it got done! I got the help I needed, we started working together as a family, and “The Hulk” disappeared! I started to feel so good about myself. The more success I had, the more I felt confident to keep changing. I learned not to be so hard on myself, that even confident people have struggles. I learned to look for solutions first and not to let hard things make me afraid.
I never expected to feel this secure about myself and who I am. I can handle my life. I can make good choices. It is so much easier to just face life and keep moving forward! It’s amazing to not feel paralyzed by the next hurdle. I’m telling all my friends. MSH has become a place where I feel at home. I am loved no matter what. THANK YOU!